Bleeding Love

listening >> Bleeding Love By Leona Lewis

sleep?! are you afraid?
i am!
because when i close my eyes...
i'll think of you...
are you the same?
i think yes!
why i want to stress up myself?
because i really want to get some rest...
i am oso a human...
i need rest too... but now...
i can't
bleeding love...
you noe what it means?!
each time you are not well,
cant sleep....
i can't focus on what i am doing...
like just now...
i didn't save the whole name list...
so i got to do it again...
can you see how much you mean to me?!
MEANS ALOT TO ME!!!!
i'm not going anywhere!!!
I"M NOT!!!!
you want me to stay...
i will stay...
if one day you want me to leave...
i'll leave without asking "why"!
Jen is not going anywhere!
why are you so worried?!
i'll always be there if you need me...
accept if one day i die la...
than i cant help you..
but as long as i am alive...
"THERE"
i dare not tell you anything about me adi...
the more you noe, the more you get worried
the more you worry the more you can't sleep...
dont you noe tat you are oso making me worried?!
if one day i really collapse.... how??
i just want you to get some sleep....
i can't continue adi... i cant see clearly...

-over stress-

falling apart!

listening >> Far Away By Nickel Back

sick oready.....
i thought everything will be gone...
but actually no...
i got more than i thought...
doubt is kinda sad tat i wasn't one of the presidents...
but... for so many years...
i finally got what i wanted so many years..
when i noe i was promoted as corporal...
i was like.... okay....
and suddenly...
i am promoted again...
sergeant...... and discipline officer...
lol...
so tired... until i cant open my mouth to talk...
every inch of my body is pain..
who said school life is free and easy...
tat guy wants to kena from me adi!
a bunch of name list finally finished...
tired until gile...
how i wish i could just have a nice sleep one day...
too bad... my days and time is pack until i can't breathe!
doubt sunday is a day for god...
buy sorry god... you got to understand me...
i wished i can rest at home tomoro... but tats impossible!
cause i have plenty to do...
you wanna see my time table?!
its crazy!
gastric!!!!!
another emergency case today...
leg cramp woh!
my hand also pain...
what to do... not enough ppl to help....
meeting meeting and meeting...
got to go for tons of meeting...
and i haven't finish my homework!
bunch of notes haven't finish!
almost dead... on the way!

busy....tired...dead!

enjoying>> Can We Chill by NeYo

phew~~~~~
what a busy day today...
i thought i will be busy after skul...
haha!
but... someone pengsan this morning...
so.... i got busy in da early morning....
after tat... go for meeting...
and after tat..
another emergency case!
aiyo... so many ppl pengsan today!
why ah?! is it a special day for pengsan?!
crap ass man...
i forgot i injured my hand... and i hurt it again!
dengz!!!!
haha!
then i was like really sleepy in class....
but i couldn't sleep la...
EA!!!!!
shit ea!!!!
i hate ea... but i cant afford to fail this paper!!!!
so tired......
and sleepy....
haiz... still got tons of notes got to finish!
this week is so.......
aiyo.... no time for other things adi...
got to stay back for today, tomoro, friday and saturday.....
die loh....!!!
pn goh and pn chong giving me pressure leh!
shit la....
ooh... forgot... thursday got to stay for bsmm meeting!

.............dead...........

injured!

enjoying>> Heaven By DJ Sammy

eh... damn... am i tat weak as you said?!
come on.... i am not tat weak okay...
my hand was injured again...
haha! it seems tat i am really injured all the time...
anyway... i went to the tit da juz now...
and tat fella was like...
oh... your vein got problem...
your blood got problem...
your blood got blood cloth..(swt... wats tat suppose to mean?)
your kidney is weak...( what is wrong?!)
haha!
he was saying as if i am going to die or something bad will happen to me?!
what a crap....!
seriously... i was like... whatever...!
damn... i am way healthy to die....

haha... until now... seriously...
i am also....zzz
i dont noe what the crap am i saying...
haha! dumb!!!!
anyway... i'm just....haha!
still can't find the word to express my feelings!
haha!!!!

Nitez!

zz-Sleep-zz

enjoying>> Stay With Me by NeYo

should i sleep...?
want to sleep
cannot sleep...
didnt sleep...
dare not sleep...
dunno why cannot sleep...
but i'm really sleepy.......

stress out..

enjoying>> Nothing Last Forever by Maroon 5

stress out....
cant move anymore..
so tired...
today... i woke up at 10am... haha...
i only slept for a few hours...
aiyo.... gile adi...
haha...
i suddenly woke up at 10am
because when i was in sleep...
i noticed i haven't reload for kah yan...
haha..
dont noe why....
so i just called her to reload for her loh...
then i cannot sleep adi...
so it was like...
no doubt i was really tired,
i cant fall asleep again...
then... i went out to sunway wit my couz...
kah yan joined us for a while then she left..
(ps:: sorry ah!)
then shop until just now loh...
nothing much today... just kinda stress out...
and.... i also dont noe why you are unhappy...
doubt every part of me is really pain...
but my heart is really pain cause you are not happy..
why?!
my couz says tat i am really lucky to have a friend like you...
yes! i am lucky...

caution... my couz is.........HOT!

enjoying>> She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5

now is almost 3.30am!
and i am still awake..
lol..............
my cousin is bak!!!!!
wahaha....
damn..... she is getting hotter and HOTTER each time she comes back..
haha.. (yes you are amanda!)
went shopping with her today... wahaha....
she still thinks tat is not enough...
but... seriously... (you got to get more)
haha!
after shopping..... we went to k.............
damn.... i got to say tat she really have a good voice!!!!!!!
omg.... i swear!
i did recorded it.... but she knows nothing about it...
haha......
so bad....!
but i dont care...
we just crap about everything...
cool huh?!
haha!!!
yup.... she's HOT!
why am i so proud, she is not mine?!
haha!
i swear i didnt smoke neither i drank any alcohol...
even though i wanted too... but i didnt!
natural high i guess...?! haha

fucking morrons!!!!

yesterday was a very nice day for me...
AND GUESS WAT!!!!!
YOU 2 FUCKING CHI BAI'S WOKE ME UP ON A HOLIDAY!!!!
FUCK YOU GUYS!!!!!!
ASSHOLE!!!
COME ON LA.... YOU WANNA GO OUT YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS LA...
WHY THE FUCK COME AND KACAO ME?!!!
YOU GUYS DAMN FREE IZZIT?!
GO FIND YOUR BANGSA FRENZ LA...
DIU!!!!!
DAMN IT MAN...
NON STOP MESSAGING ME FROM 8AM UNTIL NOW?!!!
YOU GUYS GOT ALOT OF CREDIT IZZIT?!
GIMME SOME LA... DIU!!!
DIU NIA MAH!!!
CHIBAI!!!!!
YOU MOTHER FUCKERS!!!
WAKE ME UP WITH TONS OF PHONE CALLS AND MESSAGES?!!
-chilllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll-
SEI KAO LAN AWAY FROM ME LA...
MA CHAO HAI!
WHERE IS YOUR FUCKING BRAIN?!
IF I DONT REPLY TAT MEANS I AM BUSY DOING SOMETHING LA DIU!!
MA DE CHI BAI!

dude... i just wanna have some sleep on a very nice holiday....
why THE FUCK COME AND DISTURB me?

DON'T UNDERSTAND HUMAN LANGUAGES IZZIT?!
let me make it easy for you guys....

FUCK OFF MY LIFE!!!!

happy day...

hahahahaha~
ok...
i apologize for the hahaha!
i am just happy...
today was the mes/agong for rumah sukan!
haha...
well... no need to say more you guys should noe what happen right?
the good news is....
I am voted for the president of yellow house this year!
haha!
congrats me la...!
haha! just kidding...

Amanda also wanted this post too...
but sorry.... you only got 7 votes!
anyway is still a number....
dont be sad!

chien ran is my assistant!
i have a cute dude to help me!
but the problem we are facing is...
where are we gonna kawat for sukan?!
should we kawat for our unit uniform or yellow house?!
we are still thinking of a solution!
haha...

i freak out went i heard tat pn chong said
"ketua rumah kuning jatuh kepada carolyn tan!"
i was at the back of the canteen...
and when i walk out... everyone was looking at me!
omg! I am the president this year?!
haha! ok! cool~
and i got to start my work immediately....
finally...everything was over...
pn chong said " carol... yellow house is in your hands... dont let it fall!"
i was like... OMG!!!! HAR....???
I CAN FEEL THE PRESSURE!!!!!
haha~

i dont understand why news spread so fast...
everyone kinda noe i am the 'president'
what the heck...
when i walk out from the canteen...
everyone just walk up to me and congrats me!
swt! damn... spreading the news is as fast as the wind!

i'm in love....

enjoying>> Ru Guo Ni Ting Jian Wo Zhe Sou Ge by (my fav) Lee Hom

doubt is quite a old song...
but i love the lyrics...
omg!
i am in love again...
and this time is a really special one...
wahaha!
i admit....
is just a one side love thing...
but is quite sad, when you are in love wit that "someone"...
but tat "someone" doesn't noe it or love you...
kinda sad huh?!
i wonder when i will get tat "someone"??
will tat "someone" just run away when i tell you i am in love with you?!
still wondering....
spm year... shouldn't think too much about these right?!
but i just cant get you outta my mind!
"smile"
i finally admitted i am falling for you...
omg!!!
i'm just excited!
haha! ok ok!!
why?!
i dont noe... its just love i guess!
sweet dreams everyone!

letz get busy...

enjoying>> Bei Pan by Yang Zhong Wei

everything is on the way now....
sukan, merentas desa, kawat kaki, koko...
all in one...
i wonder,
this is my last year,
i wont wanna drop out in everything this year right?
but how am i gonna rush everything in 1 time?!
big ? mark!!!!!
this is my last year... and i am gonna go full speed...
whatever can take- take
whatever can join- join
whatever can do- do
whatever can help- help

i noe it sounds crazy...
but wat to do?!
i really wanna enjoy this year....
last year wor....
if i just drop out like tat,
teacher sure kill me!
haha!
just hope tat everything will be fine!
i dowan suddenly can't breathe again!
eeee.... scary!!!

touched!

i dont noe why i am crying right now,
or maybe i noe...
i am just blessed...
by having you....
thank you...

I carry your heart with me. I carry it in my heart.
I am never without it.
Anywhere I go, you go, my dear.
And whatever is done by only me...
is your doing.
I fear no fate... for you are my fate.
I want no world, for, beautiful... you are my world, my true.
Here is the deepest secret no one knows.
Here is the root of the root... and the bud of the bud...
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life...
which grows higher than the soul can hope...
or mind can hide.
It is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart.
I carry your heart. I carry it in my heart.

happy burf day....to me!

even though i am not suppost to......
haha! can't believe i am so high in skull...
i dont noe why... natural high!
it was like the best burf day so far...
too bad evon and ying wasn't in skull..
i got really nice presents this year...
wahaha!
something from karyn...
red wine from ying kit...
S.H.E mv dvd from kailing...
and so much more... sorry... too high to list it out!
haha!
i just got so so so so high!
hehe....
calm~ ~~~~~~~~~
HAHA! STILL HIGH!

I POD!

"eh... actually what you suppose to give me for my b'day present?"
"dont noe, you guess!"
"i think i noe what you were thinking of giving me!"
"haha... tell la!"
"dont want... i scared is really what you thought of!"
"ok loh.. why not the 1st letter of the word?!"
"don't want! is damn obvious if i say the 1st letter!"
"okay.... the last letter?"
"D!"
"oh shit!"
"the second last letter!"
"O!"
"OMG!!! HAHAHAHA! dont tell me is a POD!!!"
"er...ya!"

then we were screaming and yelling through the phone!
"I POD"

Ps:: i noe what you are thinking! hahaha! dont worry! lolz! sounds evil...

bone ache! help~~~

i believe is in 3 something in the morning,
and i am still awake to blog?
seriously, now... at this moment...
i am suffering from bone ache right now...
my back bone is pain as hell!
i cant even sit up straight...
i thought i will managed to get some sleep just now...
but the pain wont go away....
fuck!!!
omg... trust me! is worst then wat you think!
fucking pain!

surprise... shit me off!

ok.... to be nice and honest... i got fucked terrible today...
you guys nearly scare the shit outta me! omg!
you guys planned it!!!
i can't imagine... tat you guys did tat too me...
wat is going on man?!
why you just stood infront of me?!
i never thought tat it will really happen man...
no doubt i thought about tat...
but i never thought tat it would be real!
tats amazing...
looks like this is really faith...
haha... i dont noe what i am saying...
dude... i thought it was impossible...
really happy man...
i was so shocked until everything i wanted to say was gone!
haha... the moment i saw you...
tat was hilarious!
i thought i saw someone else...
until now...
i cannot believe what just happen to me this afternoon...
too bad... tharani cant make it...
but it was the best so far...
haha...
you should be proud!
you finally ''punk'' me!
so tats even!
crap you people!
thank god i didn't enter the hospital!
if not..
i also dont noe!
wahaha!
one time is more than enough!
so dont do tat anymore!
but... i just want to apologize and thank you for planning this ''surprise'' even though we argued! thanks for the card...
ok... i'm gonna cry if i continue...
so... Thank You!

My naked shoe!

haha... wahaha!
i bet you guys haven't see this so called shoe yet huh?!
haha!
this is my naked shoe! wahaha!
damn happy to have this shoe!

the craziest night ever...

enjoying >> When It Falls Apart by The Veronicas

tonight was the craziest night in my whole life man...
i finally got to excuse for going to church for the past 16 years...
i went to sunway with everyone.... wahaha
the best part... evon ying and karyn was all there...
so its much more fun...
damn... tonight was so so so chun man!!!!
everyone used winter sprays...
evon and ying kena the most man!!!!
me too la...
haha
we bought so many... i also miscounted....
we were sparing each other for hours man... non stop ok?!
the best was... i spray karyn kao kao man!!!
really shong....
after everything... haiz... 3 of us all kena injured...
ying's toe nail broken...
evon's leg got water pop! ( i dont noe what is tat called)
and me... i sprained my right hand while i was playing...
i guess i was too high tat i didnt notice... till i sent everyone home...
lol.... crap me!!!
then i found out... i actually kena lotz of cuts....
i dont noe why...
we gang bang who ever sprays us... wahaha!!!!
THIS IS THE BEST NITE EVERRR....
i was so busy wit my phones!
hello, ying where are you?!!! msging: karyn, just get the guy!!!
Snow sprays.... wala!!!
group pic... this is the group, who ever bully us gets ''GANG BANG"
huggies!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!