thinking.....hmmmm???

listening >> The Way That I Love You by Ashanti

have not been studying anything these days...
well..... i also celebrates Deepavali..
i went to sunway for 2 days straight...
doing nothing...
1st time felt sunway pyramid is fucking a bored place to be alone..
maybe i had too much time spending it alone..
so i've been thinking...
"what if i am gay?"
"how would it be in college?"
"will i be forgotten in high school?"
"will i miss high school?"
"am i tat cool as those people say?"
"am i a heartbreaker?"
"did i over reacted in high school?"
"did i killed someone without noticing from marching?"
"so wat if i have gay friends?"
"do i have time to go bak to high school next year?"
"can i pass my SPM?"
"can i go to California to see the Live Ellen DeGeneres Show?"
"can i meet Portia De Rossi too?"
"can i stay beside Ellen's house?"
"will i really become gay someday?"
"will my friends accept if i am gay?"
"will all my friends attend my 18th B'day?"
"can i go bak to school next week to take all the pictures wit all my juniors?"
"am i gonna cry cause i will miss them?"
"will they remember me?"
"or will they be happy cause i am leaving high school soon?"
"should i go bak to high school to visit them next year?"
Damn...
i guess i've been over thinking these days...
owh! i think i am gonna cry..!
maybe is like...
when i go bak next year...
those people will be like..." who is this fellur who tries to act cool over here... old freak!!!!"
OMG!!!
i dont think i wanna go bak to high school!!!!
ahhh...
getting a phobia!!!!
i think i will be going bak to school for my last day of schooling on next friday!
for some pics..
well... bloggies...
good nite...
sleep tight...