the only child...

listening >> Do You Know by Enrique Iglesias

why am i'm not the only child....
why my brother came to destroy my life?
why my parents want to have 2 more kids after me?!
why i cant be alone?
why am i the eldest?
why i always get blamed?
why he wanna interfere my life?!
i wanna be the only child!
not because i want attention!
i wanna be alone....
i wanna live like when i was age 1...
can we stay at the year when i was age 4?
i hate it!
i never wanted brothers!!!
NEVER! because they are fucking destroyers!
why my life is like tat....
BECAUSE OF THEM!

-can i just live alone?-

afraid

listening >> Way Back Into Love by Hugh Grant feat Haley Bennett

this song.... what a sweet song...
suddenly... so wanna be in love again...
but haiz.....
a few guys asked me... recently...
why suddenly so many ppl ask me again...
i am afraid....
i dont noe how to say NO oready...

****************
i met bel....
damn... she is getting hotter these days...
haha!
she looks much more prettier...
but... she still walks the same!
wakao!!!! wahahahahaha
ps:: Bel... thanks for the cake gal... its the best cake i ever ate...

****************
I HATE YOU!!!!!!
fuck off la...
what a fucking bitch!
what a public toilet!!!
you are getting on my nerves!
if really think tat you are qualified to become someone powerful...
then you should be way in your fucking dreams!
YING!!!! DO SOMETHING LA... SOHAI!
she is fucking taking everything away from you!

***************
headache!!!!!
mimo... lets die together!!!!
i'm sick of this world!

totally lost!

listening >> Soulja Girl By Soulja Boy

i dont noe what happen
i dont noe what to say..
i dont noe what the heck is going on..
i am fucking lost...
haha!
thanks anyway...
for.... i have no idea at all!!!

EXPLAIN.... TO ME LA! FUCKER!

listening >> Feedback by Janet Jackson

what a day!!!!
spot check this morning..
haha~ HUH!!
i cant release my anger!!!!!!!!
FUCK!!!!!

*TO ALL THOSE PREFECTS WHO CHECKED US THIS MORNING
YOU GUYS REALLY THINK TAT YOU ARE RULER OF THE SCHOOL?!
NEVER!!!! WHY EVERY SPOT CHECK THERE WOULD BE A SO CALLED ( COINCIDENCE ) SOMEONE REPORTED TO TEACHER OR WHOEVER TAT I AM BRING HP OR WAT SO EVER STUFF TO SCHOOL?!!!!! COME ON MAN! ITS IMPOSSIBLE!!! FOR THE PASS HALF YEAR... YOU ARE JUST TRYING TO DESTROY MY LIFE IN SCHOOL! BUT... YOU WONT GET ANOTHER CHANCE TO DO IT!! YOU GUYS ARE USELESS... YOU CANT RULE THE SCHOOL! YOU GUYS ARE JUST LOOKING DOWN ON ART CLASS STUDENTS... WHO SAID ART CLASS STUDENTS CANT BE SUCCESSFUL?! YOU MIGHT WORK FOR US SOMEDAY! CHECKING ME 3 TIMES LA! WHY I DONT SEE YOU GUYS CHECKING YOURSELF?!!!! THINK TWICE BE4 DOING ANYTHING!! YOU GUYS BETTER GIVE ME A GOOD EXPLANATION BE4 I DO SOMETHING!!

-SMK SEK 4 BANDAR KINRARA'S PREFECTS SUX TO THE MAX!-

music is my everything

listening >> Unforgettable by DBSK

been listening to the same song 183 times today
haha!
chun leh!
its the 27th...
i lost my mind...
maybe i just wanna stop thinking...
maybe...?
sometimes, rhythm without lyrics explains everything better...
don't noe... maybe i was born in a music family...
this is how i feel about this song...
about today...
I fucking don't noe why i am talking as if i am a pro!
What The Fuck!
sometimes i ask myself why i am not a boy...?!
if i am, everything would be so much easier!
"i blame myself, why i am not a son!" said evon...
another phase tat hit me straight...
this phase brought me to the next level...
"what if i am a boy?" questions popping out...
how i wished tat i am a boy...!
i could have everything i wanted if i were a boy..!
but too bad...
is not me who sets this game called life...
i love music more and more, because i love to hide in it...
i cant feel the outside world,
no stress,
no pain,
no noise,
just me and my music...
and tats where i get my peace and quiet!

-music is my everything, without music, my life would end today..-

a phase

listening >> (i dont noe the name) by DBSK

TODAY....
haha... didn't go to skull....
over slept!
wahaha!
and gastric la!
don't noe why...
now days my gastric became offend!
maybe something went wrong...
wahaha!
went back for marching...
it was not bad after all...
juniors are really paying attention...
appreciated!
almost towards the end of the practice...
we kinda gathered and sat down...
just gave some comments and some kinda speech...
suddenly...
one of the cadets....
raised her hand asking permission to speak
'' we want you to come back and teach next year!"
tat phase hit me straight into my heart..
i never expect someone saying it to me....
i was so touched!
wahaha!
Yes, i will go back and teach next year...
with 1 condition!
give me a winning team again this year!
and I'll come back!
Wow!
never thought tat i am tat useful afterall!
haha!
bit disappointed about today too..
but don't ask me!
keep the spirit, make me proud!

-smile-

nerdy me...

listening >> 心如刀割 by 张学友

can anyone believe tat...
me.... studying econs?!
wahaha...
yea... exam is around the corner!
omg...
i am not prepared!
SPM ah.....
oh no!
haiz!!!!!
live happily
everything will be over soon

-peace-

evon
= image 1st
= clubbing 2nd
= sleeping 3rd
= fuck me (no.4!)
= burp 5th

Hello Bloggies!

Hola everyone!

Heyyy its ALMIGHTY EVON WONG crapping in jen's blog.

She is now sleeping in my bedroom cuz she is really exhausted after studying Econs.

I made her study u know! She listens to me and I really appreciate it =D

Hehe i just woke up beside her too cuz i studied Chemistry with her.

Haha!

She ponteng school today just to come over and study with me!


Awwww im so touched!



JEN I LOVE U KAO KAO LAHHHHHHH


3>

-this minute-

listening >> More Than Words by Frankie J

old memories pop out...
while this song is playing...
-smile-
when there was steph, eugenie, evon and me...
it was our song...
but...wow...
everything vanished!
the old one left....
came the new ones
kahyan-evon-ying-jazz...
i became to noe what is life all about...
i dare not wished there will be friends for life thing...
but i just wanna enjoy
each second,
each minute,
each hour,
each day,
each week,
while i am with you guys...
we can't predict what will happen tomorrow...
maybe we will fight?
and until there would be no turning back....
we should treasure what we are having right now...
not to blame,
not to hurt,
not to fight,
but to cherish...
its me... the one!
the unforgivable 1...
not you...

-i cherish all of you, as you are my greatest treasure of all times-

those days..

listening >> Zui Mei Li De Di Qi Tin by Zheng Kah Weng

feel so relax while listening to this song...
haha... no need to think of anything...
the rhythm just melt my heart...
so long..... just wished tat i could enjoy life...
but it seems tat i'm not now...
thinking back....
i did many mistakes!
and everything became misunderstandings..
so many things had happen...
and when i think back... i felt stupid!
haha...
finally...
everything is settled!
no more misunderstandings!

-cheers to life-

had happen...

listening >> Same Girl by Usher feat R.Kelly

haiz.... felt bored...
so i just looked back to some posts in my blog...
haha...
now i only i noe tat so much had happen...
blur huh?!
no.... i'm just stress out la...
dont noe when i only can breathe leh?!
the only thing can make me stress free is....
playing mah joing!
haha...
orang gile!
is alright.... i dont mind...
i noe my reasons is enough!

*************
i always keep this word to myself...
*Feng Shui Lun Lao Zun*
what i lost finally came back!
and i wanna win this war nicely!

HATE IT~!!!!

listening >> Feedback by Janet Jackson

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just hate my mom talking to me!!!!!!!!
why is every topic must must be something tat i hate!!!!
1stly my dog...
2ndly the camp...
3rd gambling
4rd alcohol!
i just hate it when it comes to these topics!
what the heck!!!
is there only these topics tat we have?!
i just hate it so so so much!!!
i only gamble while CNY!
why you meant it in the way tat i will gamble everything i own in life?!!!!!
HATE IT!!!!!!!
having alcohol is part of my life!
why wanna say tat i am a blooding drinker!!!!!!
fuck!!!!
i just hate it!
i just wished tat time can pass faster as i can MOVE OUT!!!
and live alone outside!!!!!
i dowan my life to end like tat...
this is not i want!

-fuck to my life!-

same..

listening >> Have You Ever by S Club 7

don't noe why these days kept on listening to the same songs!
haha!
maybe i just miss you voice?!

report report report report report!!!!!!

outta my mind...

listening >> Ju Hua Tai by Jay Chou

speaking of Jay Chou!
His concert is tomoro...
anyone going?!
haha!
wanted to go to just enjoy some songs...
but at last...
NO... we are not going...
not a big fan also... or maybe... not a fan also!
haha
suddenly dont feel like myself...
doubt i got lots to do.
but still...
haiz!
read the second version!
i wished it will happen someday...
it was a great story!

-the 100th post-

Installation!

listening >> Hua Tian Cuo by LeeHom

hahaa... talking about bleeding....
tats funny!
anyway...
final finally....
today's installation was a great success!
so proud of the 16 of us!
congrats once again...!
was so worried tat i might nose bleed when i was in da installation...
but thank god nothing happen la!
i smart mah!
haha! WHAT THE FUCK!!!
being a great senior is not tat easy...
some might say i want to rule BSMM
but to me....
i just want to bring BSMM to the next level!
workaholic!
no.... just wanna try my very best to achieve my dreams!
wah... talking crap man!
sorry!
haha!
the best!
we are very semangat ok!!!
HAHA! do i look like a killer?!
special thanks to ben, adeline and jazz..

-IT WAS A GREAT SHOW!-

almost there....

listening >> Xin Bu Liao Qing by Xiao Jing Teng

bad day!
tired..!
stress out!
not enough sleep!
wanna survive!
nerves about tomorrow!
still busy!
didn't study!
marching whole day long!
team work!
semangat sangat!
disappointed!
regret!
desperate!
meters away from my grave!
getting weak!
collapsing!
still surviving!
but not for long~~~!!!

-breathless-

school life

listening >> Xin Bu Liao Qing by Xiao Jing Teng

haha! i'm in love with this song so much!
talking about skul life....
its getting better day by day!
more and more trainings and activities are on tracks!
just waiting to get it started1
finally... started to teach kawat!
i thank god so much for giving me a very strong team!
so my pressure is considered reducing...
but still with me....
i'm so blessed... by having them this year!
they are like- the best team i ever thought!
meanwhile... BSMM is having an installation on friday!
wow! i just can't wait friday arrives!
i waited for 4 years...
and finally!
i finally can put my sergeant batch on my full uniform!
i felt honored!
honestly...
being a sergeant in BSMM was my 1st dream
tat i really wanted to achieve with my own hands!
and it became my target...
i finally got it...
and i am proud of myself...
because i never tried working so hard in my entire life.... so far!
thank god i never gave up...
if not everything will be lost forever!

-peace always-

i'm the bad 1!!!!

listening >> Zai Yi Ci Yong You by Kong Si Jia

suddenly....i just wanna repeat this song again and again...
tired of thinking....
but what to do?!
still got to think
haiz....
yes! i am the 1!
the worse among all!
i just got to admit it because i am 1!
i broke the promise..
I SAID... IF I HAD THE 3RD WAY....
I WONT PICK THIS ROAD!
but whats the use...
at the end we gain nothing at all..
for the 1st time...
i felt my existence in someone...
but why....!!!
i hate it too...
but i'm selfish!
because i did those for my future!
when i thought i should think maturely...
you cut me off...
i need it for my future....
i'm not a power craze!
i'm not angry...
is just tat...
we are different....
we can't blame anyone....
because its among ourself...
i wished i could just have a ordinary life like other students!
but i can't go back now~
so both of us just got to accept it...

Killing me softly...

listening >> Xin Bu Liao Qing by Xiao Jing Teng

i forgot what is the real meaning of the word called 'Sleep'
never wanted to update my blog since tat day...
T-I-R-E-D
half dead... still alive
what i own fading away from me...
my time, my love life,
my health and so much more!
i force myself to bring a smile with me wherever i go...
i tried really hard...
but no one sees it...
torturing yourself like tat is exactly like killing me softly!
wishing and hoping so much for another way to solve things out...
but i just cant find it...
or maybe there is none!
i felt like putting everything aside....
but at the end...
i got to carry it bak no matter how!
what should i do... to make things better?!
i'm losing control of myself day by day!
'' i felt you are not just tired, but your heart is tired too."
loong kun said to me...
doubt i know i'm gonna miss you...
but i just cant do anything...

-dying softly-

thousand of apologies

listening >> Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis

today....
one of my most heart breaking day ever....
maybe you think i'm not...
but.... today is kinda killed me too...
yes.... i'm wrong.
i broke what i promise...
but i have no choice!
this is my most busy period...
and i cant let anything pull me down...
all i can say its all wrong timing...
i'm trying really hard to focus on watever i do...
but it just wont work!
ain't your fault...
it's me!
i cause it...
don't hurt yourself because of me!
i am fucking not worth hurting for!
i guess what i say is no longer use!
i really wished tat we can still be frens...
but its not just me to decide...
my heart broke into million of pieces
when i ran away..
all i can say is blame it on me...!
you can take me as s***,
i dont mind...
because i think i deserved to be 1....
you wont understand me,
and i wont understand you.
i desperately want our friendship to last!
but this is just my thing...
not you...
i apologize for what happen today....
hope you soon understand why i did so....

-thousand of apologies-

bad day

my eyes are falling apart...
didnt sleep for....... by now is 3 days.....
not tat proud of it!
guess no one noe's how i feel now...
my mood was lost....
today wasn't a good day...
lots to say but i just............
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
evon got ditch up!
i got fucked up!
ying got pissed up!
why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the only thing i can say is.........
ok... i got to chill
can't really breathe well..
just hate today!!!!!
today sucked!!!!
my NOSE IS FUCKING BLOCK!!!!!!!
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!
argh......................
how am i gonna release my temper?!!!!!!!!!
FUCK!!

no sleep

listening >> Everytime We Touch by Celine Dion

haiz........
2 and a half day didnt sleep adi!
mood lost!

-grave-

another wonderful night!

listening >> If Thats Ok With You by Shayne Ward

HAHAHA!!!
yesterday was another fun day....
we went to harvey's house to 'bai nian'
then started to gamble...
wakao! i lost 2 bucks after all....
to harvey!!
haha....
so.... around 3... we wanted to go somewhere else...
and then... haha!
no car back to skul...
we wondered under the hot damn sun for 20 minutes...
and finally got a cab!
thank god!
i went to ying kit's house after tat...
and everyone was waiting for me to be there..
i noe i noe...
haha! just kidding...
they prepared the mah joing....
waiting for me to play...
how nice...
i lost quite a lot when it 1st started!
so i went to play black jack....
finally....
started to win again....
so i went back for mah joing...
started to play wit loong kun and wei hao.
1st round.... loong kun won me!
2nd round... i won back.......alot!!!
haha!
after tat kok jun came....
started another table with him and keng fei..
woww!!!
i just love to play wit them!
haha...
kok jun cards wasn't really good though..
so i helped him to play a few rounds...
haha!
i won more then what he lost in the previous...
so he came back and play...
and i played for myself this time..
okay!
its really coool...
haha!

pm:: loong kun, wei hao, joe, keng fei and kok jun, i didn't mean to take your MONEY!! wahaha!

still listening to the same song...
not about the lyrics...
just this sec,
i just wanna stay wit this song forever...

-colder and colder-

-cold-

felt cold.....
holding on to myself....
wishing i am right...
but i'm wrong...
this is not suppose to happen!
i wish i could rewind time,
and make another decision..

breathless

listening >> Breathless by Shayne Ward

Again... i'm hiding...
stress out...
wish you are better... ah ying..

bye... Fera

Haiz....
my helpful secretary is leaving~!
she is going to kuantan.... i think~
yup... i got to do everything by myself again...
how sad!
well... I wish you all the best in everything....
congrats again!

recall the moment you cried

listening >> Home by Chris Daughtry

at last....
i get to see you!
half dead now....
i wish i could see you everyday...
but i can't!
i dont noe what to do to repay what i left out these days...
doubt i thought tat i could really focus when i am msging you...
but haiz.....
too much to think!
i'm so SORRY!
i noe i really hurt you alot...
but i really didnt mean to do so!
i remembered...
tat moment you started to cry...
i was like..... OMG!!!!
seriously... i really dont noe wat to do....
i felt stupid when i couldn't stop you from crying...
why cry....?
many question marks starting to appear in my brain again...
and i'm just asking myself...
why why and why!
haiz....
hope there will be answers....

-dying soon-

what a brother!

listening >> No You Hang Up by Shayne Ward

Finally... chilling down!
why i have a brother like this?!
what an idiot...
13 years old...
and he is acting like a 3 years old!
he thinks he is the smartest of all...
BUT YOU ARE NOT!!!!
he just loves to look down on everyone.
so tat he will be the highest...
but think twice,
YOU ARE NOT!!!! again!
you are not even qualified!!!
i wonder.... where is your so called
-smart brain-
went to?!!!
what a shit ass!
you will never now what is the real world like!

BURN!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM!!!!!!
DID YOU NOE YOU NEARLY BURN UP MY ROOM
OR MAYBE THE HOUSE?!!!!!
YOU IDIOT!!!!
DO YOU EVEN OWN A BRAIN??!!!
YOU ARE 13 THIS YEAR!!!!!
THE REASON YOU GAVE IS
"BURN TISSUE"???!!!
I JUST HATE YOU MORE!!!!!!!!
STEPHEN TAN!!!!!!!!

boring cny!

Listening >> No One by Alicia Keys

Haiz!
POPO!!!! WHERE ARE YOU?!
(i noe you are in taiwan!)
I MISS YOU!!!!
OMG....
i miss my grandma too much....
eee... this cny is kinda boring...
Popo in taiwan,
kah yan in penang,
evon in vietnam!!!
SIEN AH!!!!!
walao... me and ying having mushrooms on our head man!!!!
what the heck!
why so boring?!!!!
i'm gonna freak off!!!!!
oh... actually i am now!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
gamble also no fun adi!
haiz!

-sienz-

~Happy Chinese New Year!~

listening >> Toxic by Britney Spears

Happy Chinese New Year Ppl!!!!!

haha! what a wonderful starting for this years Chinese New Year!
wahaha!
chinese.... Sure gamble!
dont think i dont gamble...
I Do!
but only for chinese new year!
so dont worry!
wahaha!
went to uncle's house for dinner yesterday...
then after tat... the game begin's
started small...
of course la...
little cousins woh...
cannot con their money 1...
but... sorry la.. not my fault.....
is ok to keep all of your money with me!
(get wat i meant?)
haha!
after uncle's house...
wahaha!
went to genting to continue
Mah Joing!
the best game ever..
if you dont play mah joing in chinese new year...
IS NOT CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!
lolz!
today is Cho Yat!
kinda boring this year...
grandma in taiwan!
Miss her so Much!!!
we planned to drive to China and take a Swim to taiwan!
but.... petrol raised!
so nvm...
haha!
anyway... still got to enjoy right?!
haha! Happy CNY everyone!

i'm so in love with Everlast's shoes!
haha!
because i just got 1 yesterday...
so i decided!
i'm gonna collect all of the shoes!
Everlast Rocks!

Mid Valley...

listening >> Apologize by The One Republic

Mid Valley...!
long time never been there...
finally i got my shoes!
(ps:: Thanks Evon!)
wahaha!
finally satisfied with my shoe...

1st picture of the day...!
the best connetto in the world!
FUCK OFF!!! hehe just kidding...
faster la!!!!
haiz.... agian!
another ' Chua ..... Lek'?!
dogs..............
shh... startbucks!
Omg... hide it!!!!
dont act la!!!!
respect my foot!
'THINK BIG AND KISS ASS'! come on.... i'm his si fu man!


watever evon...
i own it! tats why i'm in the middle~ wahaha!


My Fav.... EVERLAST!!!



after shopping.. we went back to evon's house...
around 6.30...
all the way to ying's house for PARTHAY!!!!
wow!
too high yesterday night...
5 girls... All boys!!
haha!

boney acheky

listening >> Summer Love by Justin Timbalake

boring day...
cant more around...
fuck my back bone!!!
hate it so much...
just a little movement...
pain like HELL!!!!
but i'm better now...
still... FUCK LA!!!!!
so time never scold ppl in my blog adi!
wahaha!
feel like moving around!
but cannot!
aiyo!!!
hope i can tahan until sports day!

-peace-

.:pieces:.

heartbreak..
silence

"Naib" Johan

Listening >> Can We Chill by NeYo

Sad! disappointed.....
why there is a 'naib' in front of the 'Johan'?!!!!
WHY!~~~~~~~~
can some one just take the 'naib' away??!!!!
i seriously thought that we are going to win this year!!!!
84 marks!!!!
just another 85 marks! then could win oready!
why?!
heartbreak!
doubt i carried the hamper...
but there was not the feeling i wanted!
i am gonna focus.....!!!
FOCUS!!!!
I want is Johan...
Not Naib Johan!
i got to chill~~~~

by the way... i'm also proud of you guys!
good job...
you guys made me proud!
keep up the spirit!!

me and my hot dude vice!
ying sze- my treasurer, chien ran- my vice, me-i'm the president (haha), fera- my helpful secretary
kit mun...my special weapon! (wahaha!) she is the winner for P1, mssd and lotz more! very proud!!!!

L-O-V-E

enjoying >> Together by NeYo

i'm lost...
lost in love...
love...
'smile'
miss you more...?
No...!
Love u more!

everyday

listening >> One Sweet Day by Mariah Carey feats Boyz to Men

suddenly... not thinking of anything...
not working on paper works...
not thinking about BSMM...
not thinking about yellow house...
tat sec... totally nothing inside my mind...
only you...
i've been listening to the same song for hours...
sitting inside the car with my earphones pluck...
i'm hiding inside the music world again...
finally... i felt i am really tired..
i am! but i cant just leave like tat.
pressure... is like thousands and thousands of rocks on me!
trying to get everything done in time...
but i have only 24 hours a day...
i only use 3-4 hours to sleep everyday....
i want to get everything done in time...
so i would have time for you later..
but it seems my schedule is pack with different stuff...
i'm sorry... i can't find time for you!
is not tat you didn't existed...
is because i was really busy...
until i can't really have the time to focus on you...
thousand apologies!
i got blasted my pn Chong this morning...
do you noe?!
PRESSURE!!!!!!!!!!
what can i do?!
i got to finish everything one by one...
and after tat i only can focus on something else...
but when the time comes...
is already 4 in the morning...
everyday got to be alert!
everyday got to be alive!
everyday got to do more and more things..!
everyday got meeting!
everyday got teacher look for me and complain!
everyday come home get scolding from my mom!
everyday my brother wants to cari gaduh with me!
everyday everyday everyday...!!!!!!
how many everydays do i need to face?
why am i still surviving today??
because you are there....
just imagine one day you leave..
i would just collapse...
and never get up agian...
i wish i just can stop the world from spinning...
just to get a minute to rest..!

-on the way to my grave-